Read this December - February.

God doesn’t want to hurt us

I have been exposed to the trauma/ pain/ hurt 

And for some reason I thought it all would come because we are refined by fire. But when Satan can get other people to hurt us anymore he turns the body against itself.

I had accepted self sabotage

The greatest form of self sabotage 

I treated my body so badly Refusing water, food, and hurting it badly. Letting others scripts govern the way I think of myself

Those words- and her words do not have power over me anymore. I am not who She had said I am - o am mot who she has said I am

I am free. I am me. I am a new creation. 

I am not in bondage to my eating disorder addiction shame

I am under his authority

I don’t want to wonder because the shame and sheer terror I feel being far from Him is unbelievably terrifying 

I long for unity

this made me remember that because I am Jesus, my current circumstances, does not govern my spirit. I am in Christ.

I do so in authority in power because Christ lives in us. 

I am not subject to my my body and emotions- they are subject to the Creator. 

Our enemy wants us to be so aware of our low place than who I am in Jesus. Our enemy wants us focused on our daily circumstances. 

Wow this made me remember that because I am Jesus, my current circumstances, does not govern my spirit. I am in the realm of my spirit. 

Wow she even had flare ups! And a bondage to fear.

Why do I identify most with the sickness and anxiety? 

Who am I being authentic to? To my temporary pain and suffering or to his identity in His wholeness. 

 “The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and the One who rescues me; My God, my rock and strength in whom I trust and take refuge; My shield, and the horn of my salvation, my high tower—my stronghold. The cords of death surrounded me, And the streams of ungodliness and torrents of destruction terrified me. In my distress [when I seemed surrounded] I called upon the Lord And cried to my God for help; He heard my voice from His temple, And my cry for help came before Him, into His very ears.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭18:2, 4, 6‬ ‭AMP‬‬

https://bible.com/bible/1588/psa.18.2-6.AMP

He is the God who rescues us and here’s our prayer to his very ear

Spiritual Fullness in Christ

6 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, 7 rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces[a] of this world rather than on Christ.

9 For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, 10 and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority. 11 In him you were also circumcised with a circumcision not performed by human hands. Your whole self ruled by the flesh[b] was put off when you were circumcised by[c] Christ, 12 having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through your faith in the working of God, who raised him from the dead.

13 When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made you[d] alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, 14 having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness, which stood against us and condemned us; he has taken it away, nailing it to the cross. 15 And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.[e]