My Prayer

 Jesus,

I need you. Every day. Every moment. Bind my wandering heart to you. I don't want to go anywhere that you are not. I don't want to do anything that is not of you. Teach me your ways. Help me walk in your ways. I want to give you everything. Even the places that are so hard to surrender. Thank you for knowing my limitations and my fragility. Through this suffering, let my body continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in my body.  

Thank you for not asking me to conjure up my strength, to fix what is not mine to mend, hold what is not mine to carry, concern myself with details that is not mine to control. So I'm leaving this with you.

 I am at the end of myself. This season has taken me to new realizations and depths in this regard, part of me really wants to know what comes next, where is next, am I honoring Your voice here in the now. Help me understand where you are leading me. This job and my community here is incredible, but I am feeling the pull of what my daughters may need in the comming months., My place of employment, my relationships, my daughters, my health, my faults, the place I am to live, my body, my time, the affections of my heart. They are all in your hands.

 Let my heart not be swayed to want guidance for more control but more of You. You are enough. You are my Living Hope. Continue to pry my fingers off of my desire for whatever comes as a result of abiding in Him. You are my prize.