Do you want to get well?

 Utltateate sacrifice 

..But God pursues us in our restlessness, receives us in our sinful-ness, holds us in our brokenness, and frees us from our lovelessness.

Object of His Affection 

Anything we give more power and attention to is an idol:

Men

Appearance

Father,

Once again I invite you to help me sort through my emotions. It is one thing to acknowledge my secrets, but quite another for me to answer the call to freedom. That journey confronts my fear and my commitment not to hurt. 

What am I afraid of? What will happen to me if I come out of my hiding? What is the worse thing that could happen to me if l tore off my fig leaves and stood naked before you? You assure me that because of Jesus, your gaze is one of welcome and deliverance-not one of shame and humiliation.

Yet I am still afraid. I have little faith at this moment. The risk of moving forward seems fraught with more pain than the pain of staying back. Surely this is not true. The enemy has lied to me long enough. Please increase my faith-for your glory and my salvation.

Jesus, I hear you asking me, "Do you want to get well?" I do, I really do. Though I am afraid of the unknown and anxious over what is ahead, I say, "Yes, Jesus, let the healing begin." Quiet my restless heart with your love. Cause me to be silent in the secret places of my heart by your grace. Show me the next step and walk with me hand in hand as you promised Asaph. I take you at your word that you will never leave me or forsake me. I've never needed your presence more. Hear me, Loving Savior, amen.