Freedom

 I just wanted to send you a praise.

I have felt a freedom in my spirit recently. 

Before this I heard Gods voice for a period of time and kept wanting to follow my way because of my anger about how life has turned out and my doubt . Because I refused to obey his voice and refused to trust, it felt that my body would not enter into rest. The scripture lays it out below. But since I have repented, obeying him hasn’t been scary and I hear his voice more clearly. It has literally felt like the bondage to sin has lifted and my shame is gone and I can feel his delight in me again. My anger was fueled by my complaining heart and my self hatred. I have been set free from both and have entered sweet rest. I think this is what Paul meant when he said I am a slave to Him or I am a slave to sin. I can’t do what I want because Christ in me is so at work that I simply can not go my way because the torment it does to my soul. He is such a gracious God who has given us Christ to reign in our hearts if we will surrender. It’s beautiful to feel the joy and freedom and how the desires of our flesh loose it’s hold on me when I am so satisfied and filled with Him. He leads us down a right path not by force but in a gentle voice and with abundant love. 

“This is why the Holy Spirit says, “If only you would listen to his voice this day! Don’t make him angry by hardening your hearts, like your ancestors did during the days of their rebellion, when they were tested in the wilderness. There your fathers tested me and tried my patience even though they saw my miracles for forty years they still doubted me! This ignited my anger with that generation and I said about them, ‘They wander in their hearts just like they do with their feet, and they refuse to learn my ways.’ My heart grieved over them so I decreed: ‘They will not enter into my rest!’ ” So search your hearts every day, my brothers and sisters, and make sure that none of you has evil or unbelief hiding within you. For it will lead you astray, and make you unresponsive to the living God. This is the time to encourage each other to never be stubborn or hardened by sin’s deceitfulness. For we are mingled with the Messiah, if we will continue unshaken in this confident assurance from the beginning until the end. For again, the Scriptures say, If only today you would listen to his voice. Don’t make him angry by hardening your hearts, as you did in the wilderness rebellion. So God swore an oath that they would never enter into his calming place of rest all because they disobeyed him. It is clear that they could not enter into their inheritance because they wrapped their hearts in unbelief.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭3‬:‭7‬-‭15‬, ‭18‬-‭19‬ ‭TPT‬‬