Another type of "self care"

I realized why a divorce would be the thing that bring me to Jesus. That was my security. Now I dont have that security. 

All of my identity in status money  my marriage and my home was stripped from me. But I still say- Jesus you are enough. 

Help me believe you are enough. Show me the places in my life where you are not enough

You are enough if my children dont wake up

You are enough if I walk this Earth alone

I fully believe that. 

Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me, and when I am blamed or despised. It is to have a blessed home in the Lord, where I can go in and shut the door, and kneel to my Father in secret, and am at peace as in a deep sea of calmness, when all around and above is trouble.

“Self-care is often a very unbeautiful thing.
It is making a spreadsheet of your debt and enforcing a morning routine and cooking yourself
healthy meals and no longer just running from your problems and calling the distraction a
solution.
It is often doing the ugliest thing that you have to do, like sweat through another workout or tell
a toxic friend you don’t want to see them anymore or get a second job so you can have a savings
account or figure out a way to accept yourself so that you’re not constantly exhausted from
trying to be everything, all the time and then needing to take deliberate, mandated breaks from
living to do basic things like drop some oil into a bath and read Marie Claire and turn your phone
off for the day.
A world in which self-care has to be such a trendy topic is a world that is sick. Self-care should
not be something we resort to because we are so absolutely exhausted that we need some
reprieve from our own relentless internal pressure.
True self-care is not salt baths and chocolate cake, it is making the choice to build a life you
don’t need to regularly escape from.
And that often takes doing the thing you least want to do.
It often means looking your failures and disappointments square in the eye and re-strategizing.
It is not satiating your immediate desires. It is letting go. It is choosing new. It is disappointing
some people. It is making sacrifices for others. It is living a way that other people won’t, so
maybe you can live in a way that other people can’t.
It is letting yourself be normal. Regular. Unexceptional. It is sometimes having a dirty kitchen
and deciding your ultimate goal in life isn’t going to be having abs and keeping up with your fake
friends. It is deciding how much of your anxiety comes from not actualizing your latent potential,
and how much comes from the way you were being trained to think before you even knew what
was happening.
If you find yourself having to regularly indulge in consumer self-care, it’s because you are
disconnected from actual self-care, which has very little to do with “treating yourself” and a
whole lot do with parenting yourself and making choices for your long-term wellness.
It is no longer using your hectic and unreasonable life as justification for self-sabotage in the
form of liquor and procrastination. It is learning how to stop trying to “fix yourself” and start
trying to take care of yourself... and maybe finding that taking care lovingly attends to a lot of the
problems you were trying to fix in the first place.
It means being the hero of your life, not the victim. It means rewiring what you have until your
everyday life isn’t something you need therapy to recover from. It is no longer choosing a life
that looks good over a life that feels good. It is giving the hell up on some goals so you can care
about others. It is being honest even if that means you aren’t universally liked. It is meeting your
own needs so you aren’t anxious and dependent on other people.
It is becoming the person you know you want and are meant to be. Someone who knows that

salt baths and chocolate cake are ways to enjoy life – not escape from it.”
-Brianna Wiest