Praying Big Prayers
Prayer is the natural result when you understand Jesus’s
willingness to help those in need and How desperately we need his help. The
wave of his faith and the wave of his will and they become the power. That is
the means by which God lends his power. Through the prayer and faith of his
people. It changes this! God already knows what we will pray and what we will
pray. There are big thing that will happen on Earth if we pray and some that will
not. It is foolishness rebellion and pride that sits around and speculates
questioning the sovereignty of God when simple obedience is what is commanded.
Prayer is the preordained way God gets his work done on
Earth. Prayer equals the mission of God on Earth.
I have seen Gods faithfulness so much this season. He has
surrounded me with family and friends and bible studies. The more I press into
Him the more I realize how much I need Him. The more I study about Romans 8 “Living
in the Spirit” the more I see the evident battle for my heart. I am thankful
that God is making this so evident because I believe it is something that needs
named. To be honest I am just struggling to know that I am still loved and accepted
even when I have seen so evidently how self centered, self absorbed, and at
times lazy I am.
Lord please win this battle for my heart. I can’t do this on
my own. Sanctify me. Lord get the bad out- anything that is not of you. Lord
rid me of the separation I feel when the shame is there. Fill this empty space.
Wrap your arms around me and let me rest in you. Deliver me from myself.
sancify me. Lord I can’t do this on my own. This past weekend I was in awe of
the grace and love that was poured out on me this weekend. The love these girls
feel so loved from all our family- it gives me a peace. I know you are telling me to
trust you but this is still hard. Please hold my hand. Please lead me with a
strong arm. I feel fear but I also feel joy - a lot of it. More than I ever had
when I was married to kanon. That dark world seems like forever ago. One where
I don’t recognize my hollow heart and empty soul. This life I see now is full
of Jesus, hope, discipline (which is hard for me). I realize that you are
calling me to a life of more. I am called to obedience. I still struggle with
obedience in all areas but that is why I come before you daily. I surrender my
will and fully press into His will- which is a life lived with Him. (Romans 8
“in order that the righteousness requirements of the law might fully met in us,
Who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the spirit”)
Lord let my own will will become His - because my heart just desires His will
and His Presence. I see what a beautiful God I serve and I stand in awe of you.
Let me be in a constant practice of being in awe and aware of your work- my
soul is restored this way. Drive out the darkness, let my whole being be
wrapped in Your glory. That is what Heaven will be. It won’t just be a relief
of the pain we are in- we won’t even remember what the pain felt like or even
what the pain was in reference to.
Lord give me righteousness. Lord give me an undivided heart!
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